This probably doesn’t seem like a big deal for the average person however for me it can be. For the first few years that I was at my current job there was a group of us that would always spend our breaks and lunches together but as the years went by I started spending more and more time at my desk. Somewhere along the line I became antisocial and me spending my lunch or breaks with anyone became a rare event. People stopped asking me to join them because I always said no. I don’t blame them of course, it was a fruitless endeavor.
Now I will occasionally go out and pick up lunch with one person in particular but that is about as ambitious as I get. Today I was asked to join a small group of three people for lunch (luckily one of them is that person that I will occasionally go out with) My instinct reaction was to say no but I thought better of it and agreed to go. These people are not strangers, I know them so I shouldn’t have even considered saying no but I’m just so accustomed to it. I’m comfortable with me. I like me. I’m good people. I went and the earth didn’t open up and swallow me whole, we ate and had a good time. Imagine that.
On the way back one of the girls told me she thought I was very confident for the new things I try with my hair, the clothes I wear and the fact that I can comfortably go out to a restaurant and eat alone and that she wished she could do the same. It’s funny how little things like that can give you such a nice boost when sometimes you feel like you’re just simply surviving.