Another night home and not feeling great. My days at work have been good so I don’t understand what happens to me when I get home. Maybe I just become mentally exhausted and give up.
I had another idea of what to do tonight but it seemed to involve more energy than I cared to expend and so I chose this. I went to Netflix, closed my eyes, scrolled and clicked. I ended up selecting “Diana” which I didn’t realize even existed as a film. Im delighted to have found it.
When I was younger I spent a week at a cottage with my aunt and uncle which was only accessible by boat. The cottage had various reading materials that I used as an excuse to be alone. One of them was a magazine all about princess Diana, her clothes, her jewels and her charity work. I loved reading it and looking over the pictures. After that summer I read more books and watched more shows about her. I remember when she died I was having a party at my place because my parents were away. We were young and drunk when it came on the tv. We sat on the floor, watched and might have even cried.
I’m enjoying it because it reminds me of a time when I was interested in something and happy.